Wednesday, 15 February 2023

Poem, 8th February 2023



There’s something I’ve been trying to access
a particular point in feeling. There’s the difficulty.

It’s attached to conditions at points 

along the curvature. Words when they come 

stare him straight in the face, as if he were the centre 

though perhaps he was the background 

the music falls on. He was the kind of man 

you would follow into the loss of return. 

You would not. Only a clod would enter that trail 

but I get to see them: My own footprints in the rain 

spilling out nonsense en route to the City. 


Next there’s the door salesman that took out the rest of your life

people said you’re not in danger, passing through 

the phased exit. Listen, Fauntleroy, you can pay me back 

whenever, the next mass suicide event 

you had blood pissing down my arms. We were so unwell. 

In the shop window there was a model of a skeleton 

for anyone that needed to get a skeleton. 

The crosshairs moved away so locate it again. 


On the wall behind The Duke we were frozen

puppies forbidden lightness kissing 

in this aubade simply gorgeous friendship;

you’d seen the sun up, robin. I had not. 

In the ABBA café life prevailed. One hundred years ago 

the boundaries raced beyond this station, 

The Regency estate blunted to the west with brickwork 

and a road, a wide, gaunt road to the institutions.

So it’s time to turn away once more 

to the corner feeling almost complete 

obliteration and how stupid again to be that way moved. 


All the while he stood there developing a doctrine, 

soap products, card games, asking for everything I shouldn’t have 

had for free. Somewhere else for now, a little way off 

west on the beach at high tide (the mast of the wreck 

twitching in the drink) you won’t want to do this anymore, 

you said, in a year or so, and there it fired up

the flickering tongue that takes you down to the Sanctuary, 

how old, I’m in the same place and have moved 

and remained the present tense folded, stupid 

to the pressure you’re inside it: A different kind of risk. 

 


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