The Stations of Fear, (After The Great Devorce).

& don't feel like a woman here

a block with flecks and streaks of grime
but not go. please don't go this time

it's funny you should say

it sucks you out and spits you in
those same old things

same streaks and flecks. to touch
the sky, to lip the streams.

the room steps out is revealed

the car, veins in the words, order

of worst

too relieved.

the day it ends as begun

you sat cross legged having

known difficult

y, having sucked been

grated. finds us at the door

in the hauling

rust-cabin  in the bowling   ground

that moves to look

as water, rocks of water   creaking, grunting

& the grass blades cut your feet

as glassy wrecks, stuck in

the hills seem awful far

& from them some sick stutter 

of light

and of that light

my sick eyes

shed tiny stones, stones that crush

the toes they fall to

rocks that fall to the fizz of light

from the hills, these figures

in twilight

moving slowly

apart

thousands of 

years to walk in twilight, drizzle, houses, all empty

imagined into life,, stuck apart, and further, never

enough light to build

from fizz of 

in this sound if i could only 

hear, these

the stations of fear as the rock-river that

bundles this tired body, this block

over, over, under, through the slightest crack

it breaks

what little fizzing lights we stare to call

a sickness, a sneer, a vanished trillion, more

& if we stay here

if we stay

it is coming

(we remain).

*****

But how about now not fearing. There you stood
before the waterfall but the water not like rock
but silk now or gunge but thinner meaning liquid
like warm all over running over and through the skin
friend take me with you. Not to fear but tear up
on the margins of paradise and what of scorn? So much
fucking revenge here these days can't we just get a long
streak of sun fizz craps through the cloud unkindly

nevermind. It's the same thing as always happens
round these parts. Distempered lives, frocks and broke
bellows. O frag of bale rock, won't swim me;
takest fine so calm & crouched to dust off break
a brow from atop ur eye. Now calm. Break
hand through water break the water through your hand
thank you sleep comes nevermind never end cancellation
of tickets to sky. Outnumbered but a tread two foot.