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Let's chat about 'fluidity'. A block of text for bridging a stumbling block. That there is a space for movement within the contingent flow of 'general' identity. But surely the idea of a generality of identity is normaising? That's only a question insofar as its treatment at this point. It has no permanence as a question. The answer is yes. Fluidity also supposes a single direction, beginning as rain, tiny droplets, ending in the sea. So the analogy we are creating with the notion of 'fluid' (at least this one) is skewed. It supposes that the identity is primal, and that through its fluid journey, its reckoning, it becomes absorbed into the larger porous and populated mass. Some people are okay with that: the inward becomes outward becomes inward becomes outward until the last, most animistic and Christian act of self loss. Blissfully ejected into the ether. Or simply entwining one to the other. Or atomizing into the infinite. There are a lot of ways of putting it. And putting it off. What is lost within fluidity is any kind of half decent analysis of the component body and mind. The tiny fleck, its heteroglossilalic jibber. I don't know what the answer is except 'yes', or how to prove it or otherwise. But I keep talking about gender as fluid. And I am starting to think that because I use it so freely and so much that it must be misleading. It is certainly alarmingly convenient. What I often mean when I say it is that 'gender' describes a lot of small actions, events and patterns. These will often shift and alter. Hence the umbrella gender has the propensity to shift too. But how many of these smaller components create the larger shift? It certainly isn't healthy to think of things like this in terms of some macro balancing act. Can't we just get over this one or the other paradigm? I mean, I had quite a good time being a boy. It's not like being a conservative or something. Although the majority of them are. They want you to take it seriously. Or perhaps this is a 'pataphor. Anyway. I don't have any resolution. But I'm happy. Smash some glass. And fuck off. x

(manifesto - 2)

Transphobia is venom. From the back of your larynx to the symbolic spew of its semblance. People are fucking stupid like that, aren't they. This violence (all violence) is allowed by, in spite of and because of language - that town full of aliens and lights. Submission, sublimation. This is why there is a lot to be said for a marauding act of subjective violence. Symbolic violence is permanent, the entire artifice of the 'modern' human. The liberal. Going totally unchecked, ready to fucking waste your shit.Your death. His report. He will become A BETTER MAN. Standard, Rhyming, multiplicity. Stupid and venomous cohesion. Last night I was told about tolerence. He said that the handiest people in fights round here are 'puffs'. Round here you don't have to care but you totally want to. Invest-in-tolerence... Weak. Speculative rubbish accumulated at the very violent onset of 'normal life'.

• I am who I am is a stupid thing to say.
• I am what I am... At least now a 'what' not a 'who'.
• Your enemies think that you're so brave!

(Manifesto)

The 'trans community' is as confused as its components. Wrapped in the umbrella narratives of LGBTQ, more narratives are at play within the 'T'. The media organs are obsessed with our bodies, and they want them changed/dismantled/rebuilt/destroyed because they want us to detest them as much as they do. A gross and mawkish preoccupation with gender essentialism leaves a startling war path of bolt down dumb comprehension. I was born in the wrong body is the liberty bell. Dysmorphia/dysphoria dysphorically morphed. It's only a part way saver. It will hurt a hell of a lot. The Metro for beige tolerance. 'Trans' supposes transition, but where is that transition from and to? Changing gender does not mean changing body. If you want to change body, you should. You should be allowed to. If you want to change your gender, you can. I think. There's more of an ideological shift involved though. What do you actually mean by gender. What is wrong. The liminal is not the attic space, the bit of left out/limbo/between. No. It's the through space refusing mobility. That is what really fucks up the paradigm. The space that you're supposed to be 'moving' (in capitalism) through, toward the great white sun. Just staying still there. That is the unlimited space. Lock in. The narratives imposed upon the 'trans community' are as damaging as abject (trans) phobia because that is exactly what they are. WE SHOULD NOT be attempting a cunning and desperate escape. WE SHOULD BE occupying the space of social discomfort for THEM and not US. Analogical shift from the body to the ground! Who'd have thunk it. We are not in transition. We are in occupation. Internalize any one narration. Make it work. It won't.

• All these support networks. Where are the thought networks? It is blasphemy to impose gender questions on the gender 'confused' because they are 'confused'/must be protected from the scary people.
• Negating the body impulsive meme. Narrative starts from out. Out goes in. In goes out. This process is called 'IMAGINARY' and we think that it probably goes on forever until the final 'other' act which is becoming dead. Being completely external.
• Gender = power structure - micro(ish) FEED macro(ish). 
• You are wrong to think you came in with it just as it won't be there when you are dead EXCEPT for the narrative. All that is left. "He was a very kind man". 

Some people who are  involved with knives are now very angry. If you are holding one or if you have one in you I can understand why. Some people are stabbed for everything. Some are stabbed for nothing.

Arrival

And yet one arrives somehow, 
finds himself loosening the hooks of
her dress
in a strange bedroom--
feels the autumn 
dropping silk and linen leaves 
about her ankles. 
The tawdry veined body emerges
twisted upon itself 
like a winter wind...!


William Carlos Williams.